The Scariest Moment

Yesterday was seriously one of the scariest days I have ever experienced. Our weekend was a ton of fun, Friday and Saturday were spent lazing around the house and enjoying our time together before G starts his new job. Sunday morning I woke up around five and sleepily pulled H into bed with us. G was still sleeping soundly and soon Henry and I dozed off again. Two hours later I woke up to G saying, "Oh man. Ohhhh man. Something's not right Allie." He walked out of the bathroom and said he felt like passing out. I got out of bed just as he started stumbling across the room. I grabbed him and pulled him half way onto the bed and suddenly his body collapsed and his eyes rolled into the back of his head. As his eye lids fluttered I reached for my phone. Dead battery. I searched the bookshelf for his phone with one hand and slapped his face with the other. Just as I was getting ready to call 911, G woke up and asked me why I was hitting him so hard. I told him he had passed out and he had absolutely no recollection of the previous events. Umm, scary!!!

We rushed to the hospital and ended up spending most of our Sunday morning in the ER, waiting around for CAT scans and test results. I held Henry the entire time, just hoping that he wouldn't catch any weird sickness from the other people in the waiting room. Three hours later H was able to come home. The diagnosis? Kidney stones.

He is doing much better today and even refused to miss the first day of his new job. Yesterday I realized that I totally take our family's general health for granted. As I watched G passed out on the floor with his mouth open, I felt a feeling I had never experienced before. Absolute fear and panic and sadness. I suddenly felt completely vulnerable. Everything was happening so fast and yet so slow. It's really hard to describe.

After coming home from the hospital I snuggled Henry extra hard and hardly put him down all day. The three of us took a two hour nap in our big bed together and last night I slept with my arm around G's waist. You really don't realize just how fortunate you are until something so frightening makes you see your life in a whole new way.