Monday, May 17, 2010

The One Where I'm a Big Boo-Hoo Baby

megan's visit May 10 138 by you.

I've been having a really hard time balancing the things I should do with the things I want to do. I've been trying to do both and have found myself so behind on sleep that I'm absolutely no fun to be around. Poor G, he has been so patient with my impatience and complete lameness but I know it's got to be getting on his nerves by now. I'm easily aggravated by the dumbest things all day and all night and can't ever rest my mind enough to catch my thoughts.

There are things I want to be doing with my (small amount of) free time, projects that are much more fun than cleaning the house or sleeping. I've refused to give up these things I really enjoy doing but I'm afraid I need to start telling myself, "I can do this tomorrow" and then putting down the crafts, turning off that so-stupid-anyway episode of Lost, and logging out of Blogger.

Making myself get a good night's sleep for once.

But what's worse than having only a small amount of time to do the things you like to do is having to give up that time to do something lame-oh like clean the house, take a shower, sleep or eat.

Look at me, I just used lame and eat in the same sentence. Wtf!

20 comments:

Her Momma said...

you need to find a job like mine so you can do your blogging while working ;)

allie said...

That would help a whole lot! I waste (??) so much time on Blogger. ::sigh::

Brittany said...

You're such a good mommy. Its just a balancve. Aidyn is three and I still dont have it together all the time!

YOu'll do great!

p.s. i'm soooo excited for my pacakge! i'll me watching the mail like crazy!

Bonnie said...

I know exactly how you feel! Often times I give up taking a shower just so I can do my hobbies while Asia naps. Or I'll stay up way too late at night just to have some time to myself.. It is so hard to find a balance.

I've considered making a schedule for myself. Writing it all out and organizing my time so I can fit everything in each week. Maybe have specific days for things...

It's hard for me also, I get a bad case of mommy guilt if I'm not spending every second with Asia that she's awake. But I've been trying to make sure I let her do her own thing and entertain herself when she's happy and able to..

I've been thinking about this a lot lately.

Bonnie said...

ps. Do you have a blog button? :)

allie said...

Thanks Brittany!

Bonnie: SO glad I got the point that I was trying to make across. I do the same thing, stay up super late and tell myself it's worth it and then the next day I'm a wreck. Weeks of doing that and anyone's bound to go crazy!

I was actually just thinking about writing a schedule, so funny you'd mention that! I also don't know how good I'd be at sticking to it though.

I've been thinking about making a button lately. Someday soon I will have one!

wallflower said...

Wow.
Not that I think about it, I waste so much time on here too!
I'm following 5270ut2y762125890 blogs. I feel bad if I keep neglecting them. :(

And yes I agree, you are in need of a real button. :)

I hope you figure out how to balance everything. ♥

Shelley said...

You need to take better care of yourself so that you can give more of yourself and enjoy life a little more!! Stop watching Lost, first of all. STUPID show. J/k. I hope you start getting more sleep!

Paige Baker said...

Oh Allie, I loved this post. While genetically, I don't have any kids I do have a niece who I am raising and I do the same thing. At like three am I will look down and just yell, "what time?!?!!" I am a total wrack in the day and have to take naps when she does unless I'm busy being practical and cleaning/ cooking/ getting things done/ going on blogger. Hahah, I have such a problem with sleep. I am horrible. I'm sorry to hear you're having issues there too. Have you tried the sleepy time tea?

Paige Baker said...

PS- you crack me up with your "lame and eat" thing. I'm right there with ya.

ashley said...

oh, i'm SO there with you. when edie's awake i just want to be with her, and then when she's asleep i want to do crafty stuff and read blogs and update our blog. that doesn't leave very much time for eating (i forget to eat too...), sleeping or STUDYING. ugg. all of those things are super important and my final exam grades from last week show that i haven't been giving them enough time lately, so i'm on a new, improved schedule that includes biking 1.5 hrs (to and from school) and a strict 11 pm bedtime. we'll see if my next round of exams goes a little better... meanwhile my crafty projects sit on the floor...

desaline said...

Man, it's such an awful feeling, isn't it? There's nothing worse than getting a few precious minutes to yourself and having to use them to do laundry or clean out the fridge. I've almost talked C into hiring a weekly cleaning service or something because I'm just driving everyone (especially myself) insane!

Jess Craig said...

DID YOU JUST SAY THAT LOST IS STUPID!? 'cause you're wrong! but seriously, you'll get a hang of everything soon. i was exactly like you a few months ago. when henry starts becoming more independent you'll find yourself getting more and more time. it just takes time.

allie said...

@ Jess: Lost as a show is AWESOME. That last episode though? wtf! Man, I can't wait until H becomes a little more independent...I will miss him needing me so much though.

@ Paige: I always forget that you are taking care of your niece, you know exactly what I'm talking about then! I look at the clock and think "three am? how did this happen so fast?"

@ Ashley: I'm hopefully starting grad school in the fall, I don't even know how I'm going to juggle studying too! You're amazing!

@ Desaline: Agreed. Our laundry is piling up like whoa. I think it's taking over the house, I should probably be on an episode of hoarders or something.

Paige Baker said...

EXACTLY! It's like, wtf! I didn't AGREE to three am!! Does nobody listen to my vote these days?! I think that tea would help you. It's at most grocery stores.

allie said...

Oh yeah, the tea! I have tried that, I took it instead of the ambien they offered my while I was in labor. A few weeks later when H wasn't sleeping very much at all I had some again. Great stuff! I do get a bit nervous about how much reaches H through my milk although it can't be any worse than the glass of wine I'll occasionally drink!

Paige Baker said...

Right. That's a fair concern. It doesn't help me much but I know a lot of people who swear by it. I have a very high tolerance though, unfortunately. I think it's all natural though!

Widge said...

oh i so know your pain.

Courtney Miller said...

I saw your blog linked from heart go boom boom, and have to say...you and your little family are just so cute!!

bunnypancake said...

It's 1:53am and I'm here on blogger...you could say that I have the same problem.

J

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